love.love.love

2010-02-06T00:24:00.002+08:00

MOVED :DDDD

CLICK HERE (:

2010-02-04T23:21:00.000+08:00

JEALOUS.MUNDANE.

2010-02-04T21:12:00.004+08:00

okay hi . miss me ? hahahahahaha.

i know i've been MIA from MSN , tagged , fb . But still ,

i try to make this post as ALIVE as possible okay :DDD

oh ya , im sorry if my blogskin look so sucky now /:

Havent had time to edit anything yet . so sorry if the font make you people so hard

to read it. i dont even know if anyone bother to read my blog.

Plus , to include that i've been busy studying for tests this week.

Thank god everything's over.

So yeah , life been pretty amazing and slightly boring with the same

routine everyday . It's been really mundane for almost every single day in school.

Oh yeah , not to mention , i had i had F&N test just now which SUCKS overall.

Test was after school and it sucks alot. I sat there doing the questions

trying to remember everything i could for carbohydrates,fats and protein ?

I managed to fill up all the blank BUT with STUPID answers.

I have the great feeeling i wont make it for physics and F&N which is like yeah.

So yeah for the past few days after school ,i've been either going home and Zzz

or going home and then met baby to fill up my time.

Or else i would still be with friends.

Now , everyone have beeen so busy with their stuffs .

And the horrible stuff is that , im bored to death . im stuck with geo project

which is my class test and MATHS PBL which adds up to my maths test too.

fuck everything .

Oh yeah , class have been really noisy . dammit.

teacher didnt really teach me stuffs that i was suppose to know.

Cause i'll ended up sitting at home and learning that stuff myself

by READING . like what the fucksxsxzzzzzz ?

I LIKE THIS PICTURE :D

2010-02-03T16:07:00.002+08:00

I LOVE YOU . okay bye ! Im just in a happy mood now.

2010-01-31T13:42:00.002+08:00

Sunday spells a beauti-fool day for me. okay , NOT.

im going to get my friggin arse today to sit and study for the upcoming tests.

i dont want to fail my first class test esp MATHS.

So long okay suckaaaaaaaassssss :DDD

2010-01-30T22:26:00.010+08:00

ok firstly , HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY TO AFY :DDD

so today , i will only elaborate the major things that happened ahkahys ?

Met dy at yck and both of us head to bugis. withdraw my money and yeah ,

head over to bugis street to buy my stuff and his stuff too. And then head

to paya lebar to meet afy ,herman , eisa and arul .

Train-ed to paya lebar and met them .

Then in the train , we head to different ways.

Me , afy , herman and eisa trained to harbourfront while dy and arul go cityhall.

Eisa m herman and afy damn noisy . kerje kacau org je.

Hahahah . we went to eat . so yeah , ate lemon chicken rice with them while

waiting for dy and arul . damn , we waited for them for an hour ???

Then last last , we head over to vivo rooftop to meet dy and arul.

So yeah , celebrated afy's bday there . Snapped alot of pictures.

More in facebook kay ? HAHAHA. all i know , we made a big mess.

Hmm , after that , we went separate ways again .

Me and dy went off leaving them . we trained to city hall since

dy wanted to drink . so yeah , accompanied him . i will never drink again.

the taste sucks . eeewwww -.- okay whatever kay . sit around and we

snapped alot of picsxsx. then we train-ed home . kay , im so bored right now.

i've be browsing through god knows how many blogskins ive been browsing.

and i cant even find the perfect one . damn it lah . now , im waiting

for time to past by quickly . anyway , pictures , scroll down ok. :DDDD
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I really had a great time with dy today. thanks alot . hahahaha.

2010-01-30T01:53:00.002+08:00

*old picture*

taken last year around october.

i feel so insomniac right now :/

I text baby and he never replied. he must have gone to sleep.

so typical of him . Anyway , i'll elaborate what happened today in school ok ?

Hmm , in school , nothing really happened uhy.

During PE , played handball. Then got one part yaty throw the

ball at my buttock . i dont know why also . thn , my reaction was damn slow.

atfirst , i stood there. then a minute later i say pain ah . HAHA !

atqa thought i was faking. so i threw the ball back at yaty . Then during physics,

kecoh eh kecoh ah . The new teacher smack huzaifah's head using a book siak.

and he damn noisy . telling everyone the teacher abused him -.- HAHA.

Dhen during recess , i feel stupid ok . i wont tell what is it.

but i still feel stupid ok ? really stupid.

Anyway , this week had been really a hectic week.

tests coming up soon . im gonna be a study freak so soon . very soon.

supposed to have tuition today but i cancelled it since im having english test.

i was absent for the past few days. so yeah , that explains why

i need to sit for my eng test today . before english , i sat for mother tongue.

hmm , i still got maths ,physics and chem.

oh ya , talking about chemistry . you must be asking right ,

what's up with chemistry ? Hmm , you know what , our class finally did

a wonderful job . the whole class was fucked up with the chemistry teacher

and we complained everything to our form teacher. HAHA .

i hate chemistry now just because of the teacher ? Hmmmmm.

Right , tomorrow , im still lost . Haiya.

i just realised that i miss that pig so much .

HAHAHA . okay *muke cb*

dy , tkmu marah tau . i mean , i miss baby already lah .

okay , im going off now.

2010-01-28T22:10:00.002+08:00

currently , life is a pain in the ass. i hate everything cause everything sucks so much now. i wish so hard you knew everything that i felt now )=

2010-01-26T09:31:00.004+08:00

Hmm , i am so bored right now. im just playing comp. Was texting2 baby tady but he was in school so i ask him to study instead . Then , ayie pulak text me . He asked if i went to school or not today . So i said no. And he didnt went to school too. PEMALAS :DDD *aink aing *

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Kay , things i need to do by end of this week. Latest by end of the month . Hmm.
- Go start studying for my upcoming tests.
-Pay more attention in school.
-Do something with my fringe ( CAUSE IT'S DAMN IRRITATING WHEN IT'S LONG )
-Do something with my eyesbrows ( cause currently , i only did my left eyebrow and then baby borrow my tweezer so yeah , what happened to my left eyebrow ? hmm , just dont laugh k , when you see me. )
- Prevent myself from doing something stupid again.

2010-01-25T23:32:00.002+08:00

eeeewww. astaghfirullazim , masai ahxbes -.-

i was sick ohkahys.

Picture taken yesterday . Lemme 'elaborate' what happened really yesterday okay ? Yesterday , i was sick . So i went to school half-day . i thought getting sick would be really a good thing but then i realised getting sick is such a pain in the arse ! hahahha .

so yeah , and i have 'mood breakdown ' in school. I feeel so shagged. Those who knew what happpened , tsk tsk. Hmmm , but everything went alright now. And i really have no appetite to eat . So yeah , went home and have a rest . Then to cut things short, baby came to visit me and sort things out with me. Now , we are back together =]

Nia so happy . Hahahaha . Kay then , the best part was , when he came to visit me when i was sick , i didnt feel sick . And then we karaoke-D at my house . Karaoke-ing with him was fun . Hahahaha .

oh ya , i want to mention this at my blog. i was touched yesterday . thanks for those who bother to ask if im alright .And thanks for being concern . Espacially , classmates and GFs :DDD

Right , going to polyclinic in the next one hour . so yeah , takecare :D

2 post in A DAY :D

2010-01-25T22:45:00.006+08:00

Alright , saturday was a really bad day for me.

all i know is that , i became a very bad girl indeed.

And it was the day when i fell sick .

[you know , i know why. haha. tsktsk -.-]

But anyhoots , it was so fun . You guys make me laugh my ass off (:

And humairah and ayie , thanks for everything :DDD

More pictures on humairahpinky's blog okay ?

2010-01-24T00:20:00.002+08:00

heart pain . broken heart . fake promises . sweet words. memories .

everything just sucks right now a million times.

im having such a bad headache now.

i feel bad disturbing and crying while talking to syahirawr and siddiq there.

they should'nt know and i shouldn't show.

im really having a bad headache. ayie , meet me tmr. i need ci**y tomorrow.

really . something that can make me feel better. i really need it now badly.

2010-01-23T21:06:00.002+08:00

MY FACE = u n g l a m :DDD

went to meet baby around 4.30. And we went gym-ing till 6.15pm.

damn , it's tiring. okay whatever. then , went NP .

i was hungry . so baby treated me at 18 chefs. thank you honey.

i guess that's all . oh god , tomorrow busy busy busy .

tuition in the morning . religious class in the afternoon .

damn , hahahha . monday = school -.-

ok bye . i love you faliq .

2010-01-23T14:47:00.002+08:00

To #3 : get a life ok ? stop spamming with fake names.

aah2 , dier suami aku :D ahbehy ?

To passerby : Thanks passerby . im sure you're prettay too (:

Told you im busy . i think ive been neglecting my blog.

If i can , i would want to update this blog like everyday .

But i've been having difficulty to use lappy cause

MORE work , LESS time . Nyaaaaaah ~

Okay , for the last few days , it was totally school for me.

School can be such a pain in the arse sometimes.

And the people too . Sometimes i ask myself

" what the hell the teacher is babbling about ? "

Damn , getting on my nerves. Right yesterday night was friday .

I'm always happy when it comes to friday . Hahaha .

Okay , went to meet baby ytd ard 5 at my place.

And then , somehow , hmmm . nevermind.

he went off ard 6 and i went to street soccer to meet ayie aka azril.

So yeah , meet him for awhile only cause he was busy busy with

soccer matches. got one part the ball almost hit my head. and i almost

had i heart attack . HAHAHAHAH ! damn .

and then yesterday night ard 10pm , went to slack with ayie

at my place. Storytelling time . Bitching time . Your head eh .

Hhahahah . okay , dont get everything wrong.

He's just a friend. Use to be my bestfriend.

kay kay ah , let's talk about school.

school was damn fun and hilarious. 3EB kecoooohhhh (:

Hhahahah . yesterday , two periods before reccess was free period.

Our class was so tired. Me & atqa & keep disturbing huzaifah .

Kite kerje kacau org jeeee. HAHAHA . i still remember .

" To all f & n students , share aaaaaaaaahhhhhhh "

Thn one part , farah said " shaiful , shaiful here "

you guess what ? everyone stopped doing everything and run

to their original places. Gala mau jatoh . HAHHAHA .

funny la . right , i realised, i didnt regret taking the subjects.

aingg. More picsx and vids in FACEBOOK ok ? HAHAHA .

ohh ya , shereen , sorry i cant attend ur birthday celebration today .

Happy Birthday hunny (:

Okay , gotta sprint now . going gym-in later with bby .

HAHAHAHHA . damn , to reduce the fats .

okay bye.

2010-01-20T00:54:00.002+08:00

I love you to bits and pieces ( L )

i am so sorry for what ive been saying to you for the past few days.

Despite those arguments , im still glad that both of us are still standing together side by side.

Oh yeah , to that #3 ,

IDK who the hell you are . Are you a stalker or something ?

Hmmmm, there's something you should know ...

Stay Away From People's Affairs.

And you shouldn't have made any assumptions.

First of all , im still together with him .

Second , i love him .

Third , why are you here so suddenly ?

And lastly , i think you should just BACK OFF ! :D

thank you.

2010-01-18T21:39:00.002+08:00

okay , im still left with my chemistry assignment.

So much of slacking for the past few days and i ended up doing everything last minute.

today , there was hair check and im caught. urgh ,

so much for discipline. So yeah , had to report at the whiteroom.

And had to dye our hair like omg pure black. pft. i dye my hair in school but then ,

my hair still not black ok. Stupid laaa. you people want to know something ?

i got caught my chemistry teacher on the first week of school for a few times

till she said " tomorrow , if i never see ur hair black , i call ur parents and send you back ."
Then i dye black uh . Thn today got haircheck , dye black again sia.

suckaaaaass lah . school is getting so sucky now -.-

damn , i really hate school now.

I've really got so many things in mind. Studies ? hmm , okay so far.

but i get so fucked up with maths . LAW OF INDICES.

mau banyak law sia sampai 8 .hahahaha . well , that's maths.

The rest of the subjects , are basically okay . I can catchup so far.

Oh yeah , today i managed to catch up with farah & co after

god knows how many days we last spent our times each other.

Honestly , i miss the sec 1 days with you guys . Hahahah . But how sad,

everything has to change now.

Hais , my r/s is still going on . stop asking why .

But it's complicated.

That's all i guess. I'll update when i have the time next time.

2010-01-17T19:33:00.008+08:00

okay , hello earthlings :D

im back again . Im going to delete my previous post soon.

Im sorry for delaying of post. Ive been really busy with school and life.

Till i dont have the time for blog,msn or whatsoever.

Oh ya , lemme elaborate what happened on saturday.

I met baby 5pm at somerset skatepark.

And we head to the cinileisure pastamania. Had our lunch there.

wow , i really miss pastamania. So yeah , we had our daily conversation.

And before leaving cinileisure , bought my Famous Amous cookies

which is like a MUST to me. Hahaha . And then we head over to

the Youth Park to chillax . So yeah sat there for a few minutes while

munching my cookies.Okay i likeeeee ~

The best part of that day was , we bumped into many people which

were mostly his friends and only a portion were my friends.

Nyeahhhhh . Oh yeah , we went over Taka .And outside taka,

there was some gig going on so we stayed up till 8pm .

And snapped so many pictures. Many , many many ! hahaha.

Okay , whatever. Dyyy , i love you ok ? (:

Anw , believe it or not , school's tomorrow.

im beginning to hate school now. like ALOT. really . ALOT.

hahahah . i just hate the environment . that's all.

But i love the people of school alot ? okay , ignore the shit im talking.

dont bother understanding if you dont understand.

HAHAHHAHA. like wth . okay bye.

PICTURES :D

2010-01-16T21:25:00.003+08:00

i own the best boyfriend.

A proper post with pictures soon :D

2010-01-15T19:53:00.003+08:00

Haish , Oh god, please mend my broken heart quickly.

today was really a half hearted day for me. i'll tell you why .

i do things most of the time half heartedly. i wasnt in the mood actually .

i was pissed with F . He ditched me again ):

And then when i reach home , you should see how i behave.

i got angry with my brothers for so small reason and i started shouting at them.

Actually , i was so pissed. Then , like out of the blue, i cry .

weird enough ? It was such a bad feeling . I keep thinking about F really .

F , F , F and more F . That's so bad. haish . i better stop .

AND then someone was being such a sweetheart to meet me up

and be my listening ear. So i met L under my void deck.

And we walked to bottle tree park . i brought my books along actually to

study . The main reason for today . Oh well , i had a conversation about

what happened to me really , this few days . And i realised his like is

so different than mind . Pretty much different.

Well , he was sleepy doopyhead. And he went for a nap .

while i opened my book and start reading trying to get everything into my head.

But something else was on my mind so basically in the end , NOTHING

absolutely gets into my head. And then F text me , ok part nie weird.

you want to know why , i text text thn i cry again .

Luckily L was having his nap sia or he would be seeing my tears.

tsk tsk . so much for a girl . so much for being a girl . Haish .

And now , guess what ? everything's over between us.

I really dont want that to happen . I told myself that like a gazillion times.

There's always a solution . But i guess everything's too late now.

I just have to get over everything . Boy , i wish you knew how much i love you.

2010-01-14T23:42:00.002+08:00

boy , looking at my hair , i really my old hair colour during the holidays.

it looks nicer and now it's gone. how pathetic . wait two more years okay hair.

i'll make sure i have pink streaks by then . two more years , it's not long . haha.

Alot of things have been happening lately . The world just revolve and changes

would just happen . In life , there's ups and down . And believe or not ,

during this week only , i've been able to feel the ups and down just within a week.

basically , i had a talk with yaty just now. i went home with her from school.

Having a conversation really makes me feel better. Cause im

able to reflect what ive done for the past years and even past few weeks.

i feel guilty confessing certain stuffs to her but yet , i really feel better.

Much better than i expected . haha , really.

Hmm , me & baby haven't really having a heart to heart conversation this

week so far. so i havent been able to share my thoughts with him.

espacially with him shitty attitude this few days which he dont even really

realised. pathetic. and he keep asking me what's wrong with him.

it's weird isn't it ? people make mistakes yet they never realised what's

wrong with them.. But anyway , tomorrow, he's accompanying me to study .

so yeah , i guess things would work out by then. And i still love him tho

with his fat , pig , shitty , attitude of yours. hahaha .
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ahh , i miss everything about 2009 .

It really have good memories but let's just move on and

accept the fact that 2010 is here .

2010-01-14T17:28:00.002+08:00

so much of ditching peope and now you ditch me countless times. If im angry , i have a huge reason for it. If you ? You really have a huge ego ahead within you. I made mistake . Small, little mistakes that may hurt you in a way. Hmm, you? You make this so called 'small,little mistake' which actually may hurt a little. But i pretty ignore it. Unless ... It's okay if you don't feel or don't want to talk to me. No force. But do you want repeat history again? Your history . And then regret over it. Choose ur decision wisely. I'll be waiting.

2010-01-10T11:33:00.008+08:00

Aye aye , hahaha . okay hello !

lemme updayee about yesterday . syahirawr came to my house to meet me.

i was still dolling up that time . hahaha . im so slow. okay , then , me & syahirawr

head to Northpoint to meet humairah . But that humairah still at home.

As expected , she's always late . Hahahaha . Waited for her outside

cotton on . Then something happened. So syahirawr need to get home first .

So meanwhile , me and humairah went to my house to change my footwear.

Then both of us bus-ed to chong pang to get her stuffs. She wanted to buy

Eventually ,we spot one . only one . And lucky for her , there's still her size

which fitsher perfectly . good for you eh humairah . hahahhaha .

Then me & humairah went to mac CP and slacked there

while wayting for syahirawr. Meanwhile , baby text me.

he said his plans changed again . he's going to somerset sk8 park and he ask

me to come there now. aku mau sot sia same dier. pfftt . whatever ehy.

first first , paitau aku . beh jady balek . bile aku dh dgn kwn2 aku .

hahahaha , serve you right uh . bluek :p

ok , im evil . hahahha . but really . baby uh actually evil first . haha.

While wayting for syahirawr , me & humairah camwhore.
(picxs above)

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so yeah , once syahirawr came , i went off alone from cp.
Trained to somerset . And met baby at somerset .
Hmmmm , i did met fir & baby's friends.
They were kind of nice and friendly . Eventho i had a conflict with one of them
before. hahaha . She's not really what i expected. They were nice.
everyone was skating and aku jady tukang jage barang dorg. Hahaha.
Ard 8pm , then i went back w bby . so yeah . otw, we snapped picxs.
(picsx below)

And baby , guess what day is tomorrow ?

Hahahaha . Tomorrow marks , a step higher ,how long both of us had been together.

HAHA , i love you dearest :D

And today , woke up early for my bursary award. Ohmygay ,

im so happy already . Thanks mom & dad.

Later , im going off to religious class. So yeah , need to rush now.
Happy reading my long long post okay honey .

2010-01-09T08:55:00.001+08:00

so pissed of you ditching me in the very ,very last minute.

for whatever reasons which have happened countless times.

boy , thank you very much.

2010-01-08T19:19:00.004+08:00

Guess what ? im feeling so exahausted right now. Finally , first week of school

is over. And i can get my seven hours of sleep. Im feeling so worried

because of something ): oh ya , school was fine.

i got motivated and kind of inspired by one of the teachers in school just now.

She was talking everything about success . And it makes me think

what i want to do , to be when im getting older & older.

I'm sure the whole class was motivated by what she told us.

Sheeshhh , it really make think of my future.

Oh ya , after school , met baby . we had plans uh actually .

But plans changed . But plans changed again . I went home and baru nak

lepaaaaaaak on the bed . But then , baby called and he said he wants

me to accompany him to mcys. so you know , i got ready so fast and met him

under my block . 851-ed there. hmm , im tired & sleepy yet i told myself

to accompany him instead. cause i know he's having some problem.

baby , just dont lie to me again ok like what you almost did tady ? :/

okay blah blah , and im right about what i felt. so yeah , after mcys ,

went to toa payoh central . I bumped into fir amkss. woahhh , like

so frigging coincedance cause tomorrow , im meeting him to skate .

tomorrow , i want go skate with baby & fir but like wdf ah .

something happened. nak tawu ?

Look at my eyes ):

sedehhh soyyy . how am i going to show in public with one of my eyes gytuk ? pray hard that mosquito bite will go away . please please please. hahahhaha.

2010-01-06T19:39:00.003+08:00

ohmy, it really feels better to blog here.

School was somehow great. Finally, i get to meet everyone. But nothing would remain the same as 2EA. But my present class, kejoh joyy. Haha.

First day , was really nothing to me. I slept in the class whenever i get the chance . Knw why? I did not slept the night before school.

Second day of sch, made me so moody after kene lectured because of my hair and wb. *Fucking sex machine* it's actually an inside joke.

Hmm. And today was just a typical day. I just got my sense right. I was almost late fr sch.

And baby had been a great company for me this few days. He had been there for me throughout this whole week. Went to sch and went home with him for the past few days. Thanks a lot okay love . You really mean everything to me now. I love you okay faliq .

2010-01-03T13:14:00.002+08:00

Angry for the past few days.

To be exact - Jealous.

I keep having thoughts . Thoughts that felt so real .

But something that i dont ever want to happen.

I did something crazy yesterday .

And something crazy happened yesterday .

wont elaborate.

Hopefully me and baby are gonna be okay .

And hopefully , i can trust him again .

Meanwhile , cant wait to see my girls tomorrow.

ohmygayyy , just excited.

okay byeeeee.

XOXO.

2010-01-02T01:34:00.002+08:00

IM SO FUCKING , ULTIMATELY PISSED WITH YOU RIGHT NOW.

SERIOUSLY , DONT TEST MY PATIENCE. I WILL NEVER TRUST YOU .

2010-01-01T21:26:00.002+08:00

I still miss everything about 2009 when i think back . Time just flies so fast now :/

Boring , and i decided to update again .

Yesterday countdown , which i thought to be so boring turned out so great .

So yeah , today , in the morning saw something that made me so

unhappy with bby . fuckkkkkk uh. so yeah , but everything went fine later.

forgave him . i told you ive been patient with him this few days .

But i know he love me whatever he does. And you know what ?

i love him toooo (:

kay yeah , went to buy my sch shoes today . so yeah , i bought my stuffs alrd.

im so ready for schoool. i dont want to study . but i want meet my friends.

it's been a while ok. hahahha . half of my sec sch life is over.

im so different when im in sec 1 and 2 when i think back again and again.

oh yeah , going to jb later . -.-

happy new year (:

2010-01-01T12:51:00.004+08:00

okay hey . Finally , HAPPY NEW YEAR :D

goodbye 2009 ! It's been a great year overall with sweet & bitter moments.

Espacially with classmates and friends and the start i knew bf . Haha .

right now , who cares. Fuck the past kiss the future.

Let me elaborate what happened previously .

On 30/12/09 , went out with siddiq & syahirah to ssc to buy school skirt.

But queued so long ended up my size was out of stock . cb .

i was like what the fucking hell. waste my time queueing aje.

[ PICTURES WILL BE UPLOADED SOON ]

probably in the next post okay ?

As for yesterday ( 30/12/09) , everything was great .

Met up with humairah at my house ard 7.30 pm . And head to NP ,to have

my dinner . Had our dinner at Eighteen Chefs. It's been awhile .

Then met syahirah and sham at khatib . Slack at pg nearby till 11pm .

Then bby called and he said he wanted to countdown with me.

i was happy . hahahaha . atfirst kan , i was mad with him , cause he said

he wanted to countdown with his friends . kay whatever , it's just that ,aku adelah ridu dier

like cb ok and i just want to spend the last few minutes of 2009 with him.

As i was telling you , i was happy . So yeah , met him at khatib mrt.

And everything went well . Head over to the concert after that .

Hahaha . Anw , thanks , humairah , syahirah and sham for the great day .

sorry if i cant get to spend my all my time with you guys . But i still love korg ok ?

Hahahahha , and bby , i syg you pon . Oh yeah , pictures with bby will be

uploaded probably in the next post cause everything with him now.

Sorry uh , bat mampos that time kat countdown .

So yeah , took picsx using his fone . Btw , picture quality so bad.

Sorry . DIGI CAM with daddy . Hahahhaha .

2009-12-29T21:05:00.002+08:00

P I S S E D

why are some people in this planet earh so stubborn and egoistic ?

Dont they realised who are they ?

And what am i to you ? Ur sister ? Ur toy ? Ur friend ? Or just nothing to you ?

i dont ask you to be there for me 24 hours.

I dont ask you to do anything much .

Going out with siddiq tomorrow.

Thanks bestfriend . Ur the most loving and loyal one .

Sayang kauuuuuu . Yg laen tkmo jealous .

Kawan baik jeeeeee (:

2009-12-29T00:38:00.002+08:00

Today , honeylove ajak keluar but then , i had other plans with my family .

Mom's not working today and tomorrow . So yeahs , today , went to meet mom

at Northpoint to have my lunch . After that , went to the library . I just need a few

books to refresh my mind. Reading is like the best thing for me now.

Then went to Yishun Industrial . Our car's ready . So , drove to Yishun Central

again to withdraw some money from the bank . Geee , bumped into who ?

Siti Hariati . Hahaha , chatted for awhile and she went off.

Head off to JB with family . Back around 11pm .

Mad at baby at that time . Looks like he doesnt care about me.

Felt that he cares his peers more than me . okay *whatever face*

but i know im wrong . He's just too nice. Simple, that's why ily kay baby.

2009-12-27T23:42:00.002+08:00

*old picture*

Today , ive been staying at home . Enjoying the tv shows. I dont know , i just feel so restless for the past few days to do anything . I've been tired with everything i've been going through . God knows what i've been going thru lately . I've learnt how to be patient with everything now. I think , i feel better now when i can get everything just under-controlled.

It's been a rough time for the past few days . The reason are obvious. People who are closer to me. Hmm , when will they ever realised that their actions sometimes can make me fall apart. I told you im sensitive . But still , i never took anything seriously . Haish ,

I guess , i'll end here. Few days till school reopens. Countdown , ive got plans .

But the most important thing , i wont be in the town areas. Pheeewwwww.

CHRISTMAS !

2009-12-25T22:07:00.005+08:00

Hello sweetyloves.

My previous post mentioned im off to jb right ?

hahah , im back ard 5am today . And yeah , i was sleeping

soundly till syahirawr called me ard 11am. She woke me up.

She wannted me to come over for the christmas thingy at glenda's house.

So i made up my mind at that point of time to go for that event.

Hmm the rest of the family members still sleeping. Tired.

was back at 5am ehy ? Hahaha ,

So yeah , siap siap all and met syahirawr.

To cut short , met siddiq at khatib mrt station around 3pm .

And head over to northpoint to look for stuffs.

And then went to yishun mrt. Okay part nie kelakar.

Called sham and we were like asking , where the hell is he.

he said he's with glenda at yishun park . me and syahirawr was like

WHAAAAAAAAT ? ahbey kaan dapat tawu that park was actually

not yishun park . It's the community park at chong pang there.

cb . hahahahha . naseb baek belom naek bus lagy . Nyahaha .

kay walk walked and met them uh. guess how we spot them ?

Thanks to ramesh ! Striking colour yeahs.

HAHAHAHAH . okay aku tk baek.

Hmm , so yeah . was at glenda's house till 5.

And met bbylove at yishun mrt. i was happy . hahaha.

So yeah teman him eat eat cause he's really famished.

Hmm , and then , went to np to find my schbag .

Haha FINAllly , gehee. i like my new schoolbag .

Im so happy baby likes my present . HAHA !

Love baby so much .

i cant make up my mind.

2009-12-25T00:40:00.005+08:00

eh get ready . i suspect , this is gonna be a long post . hahaha .

Right , hello . Guess where am i now ?

Hmm , warehouse. Daddy went jamming with uncles and friends.

So i come over . It's damn noisy but who cares right ? haha .

It's like 1 am now and i cant shut my eyes. Pft .
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Hmm , today , im supposed to go buy my school stuffs with rattna .

But she cant make it last minute . Actually , yesterday , i was supposed to

buy school stuffs with baby but he cant make it last minute either.

I know both of them are busy with their lives currently .

Boohoo , and i have nobody to accompany .

So you know , i text willem , siddiq , shaiful if they can accompany me.

But everyone's not free ):

Sedeh kan ? Like no one have time for me sehy.
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okay , today ,

stayed home the whole day . So yeah . Ard 8pm , followed mummy to

khatib central buy some stuffs and eat mc donald. I bought my

nail buffer alrd but ended up throwing the plastic bag in the bin

without emptying it. My nail buffer was inside actually .

i was like wtfsxsxsxzzzzzz lahhhh ! hahah , but nvm lah .

kay kay , then reach home watch tevee . thn i got nothing better to do

so i went to my store and find stuffs. i dont know actually what

was i finding. i was just bored so i decided check out all old stuffs

in my store. case dah takde kerje . Hahaha .

eh , best knowing what i did just now the whole day ? kpo ! hahah .

So yeah , let's continue ehy . waited for daddy to be home .

And head to warehouse. So here am i now.

Tomorrow , everyone been urging and persuading and texting me about

the christmas thingy at glenda's house . hmm , i cant make up my

mind if i should go or not . kesian pulak aku tk pergy !

hahahah , i know you all miss me right ? you miss my noisy-ness kan kan ?

nyahahhaah ! nvm , i'll go if i feel like going okay tomorrow.

celebrating christmas tomorrow . willem , if you're reading this.

kau mau action dgn vodka sia sia . HAHAHHA.

kay kay , dah 1.26am , im going johor now . hahahha .

uncles going pontian . im going jb now . so yeahhhhhh .

AND AND , merry christmas okayyyyyyyyyy honeyloves :D

2009-12-23T13:59:00.001+08:00

Privating My Blog for The Time Being Soon . Should i ?
So yeah , just leave your email(s) incase im privating my blog or tell me thru MSN .
T h a n k s.

2009-12-23T00:40:00.003+08:00

Let's see. Hmm , today , i was still sick . Yet , i tell myself that

i should meet bby to sort things out between us . And anyway,

thinking about how i miss him makes me want to see him more.

Right , head to the library to do my self studying and bby met me there.

Everything went well .

And night time , something happened between us.

Yeah , arguments here & there.
Well , im tired & sicked of all those quarrellings with him.

Everything was okay when i called him and sort things out.

Eventhough ,everything's alright . I dont feel good

i cant make up my mind what's right to do now for myself.

Tough decisions are hard to make .Hais .

Meeting him tomorrow eventhough i dont feel like.

i dont know why now . i feeel so bad.

i just hope things will get better for the both of us .

I just need to talk to him face to face.

I must thanked everyone who bothered to ask if im alright or not.

Thanks syahirawr, nabil ,rattna , siddiq and shazry .

" i gave my heart to you and it's your turn to keep it now "

2009-12-21T21:41:00.002+08:00

Hais , Look at what i've done now. From a snall issue , it can turn out to be a big arguement ? I dont know what should i do now. Look , im tired. I know im being so egoistic now. Showing him how much i dont need him in life when actually , the fact is , i need him badly and i cant lose him now. He's just the one for me. But on second thought , after what he called me and said to me , i dont feel like saying sorry to him . It's just that im not ready to be the first one to apologised. After what he criticised about me , should i be the first one to say sorry ? Im tired actually with how he treats me. He didnt even care if im sick or not right now. He's making more sick. Thanks.
tell me how i should stop loving him ? im just plain heartbroken now.

2009-12-21T12:58:00.001+08:00

i'm really dying now.

my stomach is really killing me......

2009-12-21T02:00:00.007+08:00

Reason why i didnt upload the rest of the pics ?

M A L A S ! :DDD

So typical of me lah kan ? haha .

So anyway , im home . I was back home around 1am .

Feeling so fatique right now. Oh yea , holiday with the Basiron family

was the bombsxsxzzzz. A total of six cars like altogether.

wahhh , sumpah kecoh ghee. Chalet was fine . But the scenery was beautifool.

Now im back , i dont feel like elaborating what actually happened.

All i know is that , when im away , my mind like finally peaceful.

I dont have to think about anything happening here. But once im back ,

everythings comes back and i just have to face it what's happening here.

Balek je , received alot of msges. Espacially from Khai . Masyallah ,

kay shh shhh , nanti kene pakpokpakpok dgn bby lagy .

SO yeah , text bby .

Miss him y'know. Let's count how many days i havent meet him.

Hmm , 4 days already .

Anw , supposed to meet baby tomorrow but i dont think i can .

cause guess what ? im having stomach upset. idk what i ate at m'sia sia.

Suspect foood poisoning siaaa aku kene :p

okay diam , tkmu mintak kene . And then i dont think tomorrow ,

i can wake up early. im tired. nvm , text him later.

Oh ya , i should tell you the chalet was exactly infront of the beach .

And tt time kan , i was walking and i reach this place .

Thn i saw something . so i was like asking and i almost touch it.

Guess what ? That thing was a TOAD !! And i almost touch it.

my reaction ? i screamed thn i run away . uncle was like asking

what happened. thn i told him i almost touch the toad.

uncle with his cb face ignore me . hmmmmmm.

mmg sajak pon dier ignore aku :p

Thn my small lil cousins was like laughing at me and making a big fuss out of it.

grrrrr. hahahhaa :D

Niway , im off. tired. i neeed a good rest . goodnight everyone (:

2009-12-18T02:14:00.003+08:00

Just deleted 2 of my previous post . Those who read it , consider yourself lucky okay .

Anw , will be going malacca and KL for the next few days . So yeah , finally , im able to have a peace of mind . I'll make sure i'll update with lots of pictures. Ive been a busy girl for the past few days . I really had to wake up from everything and start telling im living in a world of reality so i must accept everything that's going happen to me sooner or later .

2009-12-16T23:43:00.003+08:00

argh , it's all my fault now. things end up so shitty now between us.

im selfish .selfish .selfish .

Damn selfishh . i shouldnt say like that . am i so harsh ?

Hais , have you ever tried telling someone but at the same time ,

your trying very hard to tell them in the nicest way whithout hurting them.

i think im too harsh . i speak without thinking. am i ?

firstly , i dont like when i get scolded by you or what. I feel so bloody small.

i know im fourteen . But must you scold me like you're scolding somebody

older thn you ? sikit2 tu cukop ah . And when i talk sikit , you

get angry so easily . I feel that , there's not even a chance to let you

know how i felt . i have feelings too . why cant you just understand ? ):

i need you . i love you .

went to town with ratty the whole day . wont elaborate .~

bumped into many people. HAHA !

2009-12-16T02:11:00.004+08:00

okay hello , currently blogging chatting now . siang2 baby dah tido pergy dreamland. *muke cb* i dont know what's his problem . hmph . p e r a n g a i . He sounds so moody when i text him . And when i ask him , he answer with a one word je . Then if i never ask , he only say , okay or haha , okay or hmmm , okay . irritating right msg pple ahbehy they never layan you ? hahaha . Hmm , i dont know if i did something wrong or what . Maybe i should apologised or what tomorrow. Few more days till im off and i dont want him to treat me this way . obviously. argh , just dont know what's up with him today . hope he's like okay already tomorrow. you know , im trying hard to change my attitude all because of him . So Nia Syaera , you must be patient with everything. Learn to be patient. Hahaha . Alah , i miss him already ):

Okay , just now shazry called me . Not surprised. Cause he's been calling me

for the past few days and i didnt anwered. Lazy . tsktsk . dont tell him.

He wanted to talk longer but i wanted to hang up earlier cause yknow he's

disturbing me listening M12. Ahbehy , when i wanna put , he says ,

i forgotten him all . obviously not lah. im not so bad tau .

He's like my problem solver and listener . HAHAH , i still remember those days.

Miss you .

Okay , this is siddiq step sachok . tsk tsk . mampos kalau dier bace.

okay fake , siddiq sachook .*mucke cb . * hahahaha .

Fyi , siddiq's my besto since sec 1 already . So yeah 2 years of friendship

and still counting. He helped me alot in terms of everything.

He knows , i knows. And and i trust him . Haha . Next year , guess what ?

im in the same class as him . Hahahhaha . cool or what ?

okay memang cool . He's a great listener. And you know what ?

When im in shit , he's always there to stand by me as a friend.

He's already attached. Last long ehyyy. Hhahaha .

Sorry ah siddiq , post tak sampai 120 WORDS. hehs.

Okay im off. going otp with siddiq already . he cant sleep.

i also cant sleep . aku dah mcm burung hantu ahh siaaaaaa

Tomorrow , gg out meeting ratty . Cellphone irritating uh .

idk who text me . He's like telling me stuffs yg sungguh aku tkperlu tawu.

suro blg sape , tknk blg sape. dasar bodoh nak mampos.

Dah , aku pon tak layan . Buang mase .

2009-12-14T23:58:00.007+08:00

Today everything spells with the letter A.

Awesome cause i managed to spend my time with baby .

It was actually to celebrate our 2 months . Haha . Skejap dah 2 months.

Hmm , anyway , thanks for the treat kay syg and spending your time with me today.

Most imporatantly , thank you for loving me okay . Cause i love you.

Now , 2am , already . tomorrow , must wake up early for class.

but you know what ? i want to pretend to be sick so i dont need to go for class.

My eyebags are killing me really . Cause ive been sleeping late nights and

waking up so early . Ended up i have only 4 to 7 hours of sleep .

Tomorrow, (prays hard i wont be gg anywhere) , going to spent my time

sleeping like a pig on my bed. my only free time . Gawd , hahahha .

Baby now , confirm dah tido . Agaknye dah snoring pon . Hahaha .

Actually i dont want him to sleep you know. im evil , i know.

But tkde org nak layan aku kalau dier dah tido ):

But since he's tired and im a nice gf , i let him sleep . Hahaha .

Mampos kalau dier bace nie. Hhaha . me nice ? hmmmm, very nice .

hahahahha .

2009-12-14T00:43:00.006+08:00

Alright , life's been pretty great lately . On saturday , managed to spare my time with my gfs. Haha , it's been awhile since i took my time to meet them and spent some time with them.I mean im like in my own world and they are like in their own world. Now i get what humairah's saying. She's right somehow. Haha. I missed all the laughters from this group of girls. They've been a great group of girls although we were so chaotic. We talk so loud. We laugh so loud. No matter time of the day . No matter where we are. And people keep staring us like one kind of face in the MRT ? sorry , i wont be tagging for swimming tomorrow alright. im already sick of swimming plus aku dah serik pasal , tsk tsk . (i know, public dont know) except for certain people. Hahahahah.

So yeah , me & bf , we're alright again. Haha . Nothing can break us apart for now, i guess. Well , hopefully history wont repeats itself. Im happy with him , hmmmmm so yeah .

Actually , im like suppose to be sleeping now cause im supposed to wake up early tomorrow for some classes. ghee. bye singapore in 4 days . Haha , i cant wait :D

2009-12-12T00:59:00.004+08:00

Just finish otp with him . I accept whatever stuffs he said to me. Yes , my mind , it's still growing . I still have a mind of a 14 year old. And i've got really a long way to go . Im two years away from you. And you're two years ahead of me. All this while , i accepted you in any way you are. No matter how good you are to me or how bad you are to me. But i dont understand when you start telling me how imperfect you are and telling that im so much better than you . And i still have a bright future ahead. And there's another thing that you told me . It really pierce through my heart eventho i asked you to tell me everything what you feel. . You asked me if i was crying. I said no . I had to lie. I dont want you to know how weak am i . I feel weak .Very weak without you. Cause i really love you . Maybe you dont realised. I think this is so K A R M A . I dont know why things ended up so shitty when i love a guy so much . I dont want you to accept me in your life because of sympathy . im right maybe , what my insticts are right probably . your love for me . it's fading isnt it ? im having this scary thoughts for the past few days wishing it was just a nightmare. but let's just forget it. i just have to face the fact what your feeling are towards myself. im unsure of your feelings towards me.

sorry if i'm not a perfect gf for you all this while.

2009-12-11T21:29:00.002+08:00

Firstly, Happy 2 Month Annivesary . I hope this will last . I love my babyboy very much. Eventhough , yesterday , we had an argument , im still happy that you would forgive me. I feel so stupid and bodowh cause firstly , i told you . Secondly , how could i do this to you ? I know i was being so selfish . Thinking about what i only wanted but i didnt really care about what you felt. You dont know how guilty am i when you started scolding me. I feel so crushed. And then when i was on the phone with you yesterday , i dont even know what to said . So i kept quiet . I didnt know what to said cause i know i was to be blamed this time . But everything started cause i thought you didnt really care about me. I really need you in my life. Im sorry ok bby ? I love you so much .

Anyway , i wanted to go out tomorrow but im broke. I'll only be able to make it on monday onwards cause i'll be receiving $$$ already by that time. Next week , i'll be very busy . Im supposed to meet baby today but he went for his work instead. So yeah , nevermind. I hope to meet him on monday or tuesday . Cause it's been awhile since i saw him .

Anyway , im excited. Im going shopping on SUNDAY . you want to know something ? I cant live without going shopping . Hahaha . And guess what ? Im done watching NewMoon. Awesome. I love Jacob now. He's so fucking hot. Maybe even better than Edward Cullen . Bella doesnt deserve him . I DESERVE him . hahaha .

ONE .

2009-12-10T00:09:00.004+08:00

Alright hello , im back. I just got back from Johor . Ive been really busy .

As expected . Although things didnt go out as what i planned this week ,

i felt that it's been really a hectic week . First of all , ive been busy

preparing for school stuffs as im going holiday next friday .

And ive been busy attending religious classes. Gahhh . That explains why .

I have no time for everything . Gahh . Nevermind , work first , play later.

Yesterday , went to vivo with mom and brothers to buy school shoes.

And footwear for holiday next week. And guess what ? I ended up buying

myself a bag for my holiday and slipper from this (iforgotthename) store.

And while i was busy shopping , guess who text me?

Hahaha , it was khai . Haha , he's damn weird . He like to MIA then come back to life.

He's been asking me out since god knows when . And you know ,

ive never gone out with him.Cause there's something about him that's

worrying me uh . I was actually planing something for him

next week . *chuckles* padan muke kau :p

kacau aku lagy ah ? HAHAHA .

Shuhada and shikin was supposed to come to my house uh today .

But they paitau ): But then i know they were very reasonable.

So nevermind lah okay . Hmm , i went to brother's sch at Bishan in the morning.

Should enter that school instead you know. HAHA . okay , bobal merepek.

Ive been missing sayang the whole day today .

I just dont know where he's gone to .Hmmphhh .

Just now , i got back from jb , i called him.

Cause yknow , i didnt talked to him the whole day .

Then , he said he wanted to sleep as he was tired and he's going out tomorrow.

Fine , i understand . He went cso the whole day . I know he's tired.

Hhhhhhmmmmmmm ~

FOUR .

2009-12-06T20:57:00.003+08:00

i miss school . i miss wearing my school uniform.

see how UNGLAM is my picture when im laughing ? *looks up* i found this picture lying aimlessly in fb. Alright let be have a proper post now, i guess , since im like okay and not so moody like i am just now.

ah , i miss baby so much now . i dont think he realise how much i miss him . Hahaha , i havent been really having a real conversation with him this few days. Maybe that explains why alright. i wont be meeting him till friday . cause both of us will only be free on Friday .

2009-12-06T13:15:00.002+08:00

im so fucking P I S S E D right now. Dont bother to ask why . Cause surprisingly, the reason are the people around me. i didnt even attend the 'family outing' today cause i chose to stay at home.

2009-12-06T04:44:00.003+08:00

i think that babi has fallen into his deep slumber. so typical of a pig. i just text him . he never reply ): boohoo. jahat seehhhy .hahahahha . but you know , he made me wait till 4am . Now dah 4.44am . tha another 44 minutes i made myself wait for me . understand ? tk paham tkpe. tkpe uhy , thank you ahhhhh. besok aku pulak yg jady babi . kay bye , nak tido pulak.

2009-12-06T04:15:00.002+08:00

guess what ? it's 4.15 am. im bored. im wayting for bf to call me. Jangan2 dier dah tido -.- Mmg sah dy babi kalau dah tido . Alahhhh , tkmo tido lah ?*prays hard.*

FIVE .

2009-12-05T13:21:00.002+08:00

Okay hello readers. Im currently facebooking now.

And im viewing the ANTI MINAHS & KENINGS 2.0 . hahahah , funny much ? why dont you guys go and take a look at yourslelf in fb ? hahaha.

Anyways , yesterday , i went swimming with baby and fadylah at jurong . i wont really elaborate what happened. Hahaha , and then head over to jurong point . Hmm , i guess that's all.

Few weeks till school's open. Ohmygayyyy . Hahaha , that's fast .

seven .

2009-12-03T15:18:00.002+08:00

Nahhhhh , amek kau bodoh . okehhh , fake . hehs.

Webcammed with Ariel just now. It's been awhile since we contacted each other.

Miss me eh ? Hahahaha .

im bored sia . Baby went to CSO so im stuck here alone.

Boring . Hahaha , i really miss baby now. Gheeee.

okay , im off. wanna do something to kill time.

Good day people.

2009-12-03T01:27:00.001+08:00

KNN CB . Wanted to change my blogskin but i ended up messing the codes. It took me 2 fucking hours ? i messed up everything. what a waste of time.

EIGHT .

2009-12-02T23:32:00.002+08:00

Sometimes , i dont understand why daddy treat me like a little kid.

It makes me feel he's selfish and i hate that to happen.

But who am i to say that i hate him for that small little reason ?

Anyway, I accompanied afifah to school and slack at sembawang .

Cause i was very pissed with somebody . Guess who ? Dhat babi lah .

Hmph , pagy pagy dah bwat org marah . Mane aku tak sot .

After sembawang , head over to that babi place to meet him for awhile.

By that time , both of us okay already . Hehs :D

So yeah , snapped some pictures . Sorry uhy muke masai . Gheee.

Aww , i love you babyyyy .

You're the best thing that ever happened to me and i dont want lose you now.

XOXO

2009-12-02T00:19:00.002+08:00

yeeeeaaaayyyyy , Imma Very Happy Girl Right Now. Hahahahahaha.

1. i can finally go out like i do .

2 . i'm receiving my bursary award again .

3. im going swimming again this friday =]

4. i met juniour just now after how many months already.

5. Im going picnic next week with eqa , ratty and elyssa.

And the last one , which is no 6. ,

im going holiday again in next 2 weeks .

HEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHE.

so those are updates. grrrr, i miss faliq very much now.

lucky , im meeting him tomorrow.

okay , goodnight wonderful earthings.

2009-11-30T11:16:00.005+08:00

OKAY , HEY ! im back =]

anyone miss me ? hahahha. i miss my friends and cousin. It's been quite awhile since i saw them boohoo. Now , satu batang hidong pon aku tk nampak dorg. On friday , there was this korban going on at nenek house in malacca. I'll post the pics soon okay .

Thn on saturday , i was supposed to go bowling and pooling with my cousins but you know there was alot of people so yeah plan phostponed. That place was full of guys . So blame my cousin for bringing me that place. I dont really like that place. There's alot of mat . kay what the hell am i talking . if minah in malaysia is bohsia (that's what my cousin there told me) but what is mat ? hahahaha . one of the mat say something to me. I wont tell what but it's like eeewwww. Ok then , i went shopping too =D

On sunday , i went to mak ngah's kenduri because her son which was my cousin sunnat . We were off by 7 like that and i reached home 1am . text si bodoh tu . hahah okehh fake . text bby la . was surprised he wasnt asleep yet cause usually he's gonna be in his deep slumber by this time . he is a pig kan ? remember ? sleep eat 24/7 ? haha . Anyway , he said he was waiting for me. i was happy yknow. hahahhaa. obviously . dah one week and two days i never see him . so today , im gonna meet him in two hours. yay yay =D

i dont know uh this week plan ape. yes yes , i can already go out . hahahaha.

2009-11-26T19:30:00.002+08:00

Hmm , im mistaken . I've forgotten that guys have feelings as girls too sometimes. If you dont understand , nevermind . But im really feeling sorry to bby . Let me tell you something . Ive been very self centred and selfish this past few days and havent really thought of bby's feelings. Haha , now i realised everything. Thank gawd. Hahahaha .Both of us managed to sort things out . And you know , he's the sweetest as ever and i love him like i always do (((:

Okay , i'll be blogging about SIDDIQ SACHOK for the next post BECAUSE he blogged about me BECAUSE i ask him to . He's my sweetest and bestfriend since last year. I'll be in the same class as him next year. yay yay . hahahaha .YOU WANT TO SEE WHAT HE BLOGGED ABOUT ME ? hahahhaa. go here -----> http://siddiqsachok.blogspot.com

Anyways , IM GONNA BE MIA-ING . i'll be away for malacca tomorrow. i think my tagboard is dead. Please keep the tags flowing . Thank you .

my grandfather post ? happy reading.

2009-11-26T01:11:00.005+08:00

Right , i'll describe today as a busy , tiring day . I wont elaborate much . But i had to get my big fucking ass out of the bed in the morning just for my passport collection. A-WE-SOME right just for some stupid passport collection ? okay , i was just saying it in a very sacarstic way. And then followed daddy and mommy to motor workshop to check on the motorcycle. Motor was like brand new . Keisan motor . Itu hari saket accident ahbehy skg dah ' RECOVERED ' .

Dhn around 5pm after all important matters were completed , daddy fetched brothers and we head to WWW. Hmm , part nie , i totally feel so boring . You know , the only ones swimming were only me and my 2 brothers. How pathetic ~ HAHA . In my heart , i was like whining and whining about the situation i am . So BORING . Takkan aku nak pergy main dgn adeq aku kan ? I wished whoever were there for me to laugh my ass with . Grr. Some more , every lifeguard that i met , they keep looking at me . And i feel uncomfortable. Duh . Then got one part nie , aku kene KACAU . aku kene KACAU dengan satu lelaki nie uh .He knows all the lifeguard so i think he must be one of the lifeguard too . He approached me suddenly and talk to me and ask me . So the conversation went on like this :

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THE GUY : what's your name ? malay ,chinese or indian .
ME : Malay .
THE GUY : nampak tak lifeguard tu ? dier nak kenal2 . (pointing at his friend,smiling)
ME : HUH ? EXCUSE ME . merepek ah .
THE GUY : alah , jual mahal pulak . tkpe lah sombong siaa. (walks off)

Hahahaha , merepek kan lelaki gytu ? bukan merepek lah tapy mcm irritating . Then you know what , he was at the front and he waited for me lagy . And he like kacau2 me . And i ignored. And he approached my brother and he ask my brother about me -.-

Okay , after WWW, went to jb . I bought alot of CDs this time. But i didnt bought paranormal activities eventho i havent watched yet cause bby still owe me that show . Grr .Talking about bf , i wasnt really in good terms with him . And tady pagy , he was really getting on my nerves . Lazy to elaborate lah . But you know i apologised in the morning. And then i never replied alrd. [ Actually that apology wasnt sincere . Hahaha ! ] I mean dont expect me to have a sincere apology when im still not in the good mood. i think he's evil. But obviously no lah . Im the type of person , whn i argue with this person , i tend to say i hate him for this and for that and this and that , saying unkind things all BUT actually , i didnt mean any of those pon . Cause i dont know why . When im angry i tend to do things without thinking . But now we are okay .
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Hmm , i miss this group of people...

WHERE ARE YOU GUYS ? HAHAH.

And obviously YOU too . i havent been seeing you for one week already . And tomorrow , im not sure if im able to meet you or not cause im supposed to do some spring cleaning at home before going for my holiday. That was my promise with daddy . So yeah . i'll be missing you ! very , very muchh . and im sorry for everything i said yesterday [ you know , i know] hahaha.

I LOVE YOU , faliqY

2009-11-24T13:10:00.002+08:00

i dont think me & him are in really , really in good terms like we are last time. It all started yesterday , i think . Yesterday was a really different story . Urgh , i hate it. I dont feel like talking to you or even seeing you this week . I dont even feel having anything to do with you this week. I dont know why you treated me differently like you used to. Maybe it was just my feeling ? You can never trust your feelings at times. But i dont know why my feelings states that i dont feel like talking to you . You're also acting so differently . You're not the one once i knew . whatever , do as your mind pleases. Let's start with yesterday , okay no . i shouldnt start with yesterday . yesterday ,you're just telling me everything to make me feel like a fool or the other way round ?

I wish my friends are here now. i wish you guys dont have to go the vietnam trip. Miss you guys lah . Or else we can go swimming alrd. Haiyo . Kaki gereks willl always be my first prority . hahhaa !

2009-11-23T21:38:00.002+08:00

OMG . I dont know why i feel this way . JEALOUS ? hahaha , no no , i shouldnt be over this stupid issue cause i know there's nothing going on between them. kay , i better stop thinking about this. This is stupid. Really stupid to be jealous over something so small. okay , i shouldnt feel this way . okay dah , fullstop.

2009-11-23T17:30:00.002+08:00

Alright , sorry for not updating again eh . Let me start on the previous post which i only post pictures . Oh yea , on that day , met baby for awhile at bottle tree park as it's been really awhile since we both last met. Hahahah , miss my dy very very much and thank you for that stuff. Haha. Kay and then night time , head to jb with family .

As for today , here am i rotting at home. I planned to go swimming tomorrow but yeah , WWW is closed lah tomorrow. Damn fucked up. I just wanted to run away from boredom. But nevermind , i guess . I'll still be going but on Thursday . I hope everyone can make it aye. Wednesday , im away for the passport thingy cause on friday im off to malacca already . Ghee. Im gonna be busy , very busy this week .

Netball - no interest at all already youknow. i feel like calling the teacher and telling her , im so not interested in it anymore. aku nak quit secepat mungkin.

2009-11-21T23:26:00.002+08:00

2009-11-21T11:30:00.002+08:00

Right , friends are currently away now. Anyway , yesterday after thinking of several hours i realised that i missed my amk friends last year. Boohoo , how i wish i can spent my holidays with them together with my cousins like last year. Gee, so you know i suggested swimming to Rattna . But i didn't know if it's even going tgo be happening lah . ohMYgawd, i want go swimming so badly . It's been ages since i last hop in the pool.

Anyway , im looking forward for my holidays this thursday and the next month with Basiron's family. Which means cousins will be there too ^^

Oh ya before i tell you why i havent been blogging so regularly , ive been a busy girl this few days though . I cant believe that november month is gonna be so over. When it's december, you'll realised how fast our holidays here went by and it's already a new year kan ? hahaha . life is always life. time is always time. Ticking and ticking waiting for nobody .

And you know what ? i want to watch new moon with my school friends. Miss them.

2009-11-18T22:57:00.002+08:00

Today attended netball training . Surprise ?Hahahaha , don't be lah . Cause im gonna be missing sooner or later.Vietnam Trip drawing nearer and have fun okay my friends for those

who are going . Dont miss me okay ? hahahha .

Anyway , speaking of holiday , mommy and daddy are actually in the process of recovering from

the motor accident and they are getting better. Good for them lah . okay , why ? cause they didnt attend work . And i want them to attend work so badly. okay why again ? I dont have the freedom to do anything i like plus i need cash . So they must like work to gimme cash . pragai cb sia aku. But mom really lah owes me big for my shopping end of this month ! Oh ya . where was i ? yea , HOLIDAY . next week , im going Malacca. Oh gawd , like finally mansx. I've been waiting for that to happened since the start of the holidays. I really need to leave Singapore right now. Really , i swear. Im bored of the places in Singapore already . Haha , i really pity bby cause

he'll never get to go overseas till next year. Hahahahahah . Wait long long eh sayang . hahaha.

Niway , anyone know if there's any upcoming Christmas events in S'pore ? okay duh . hahahha . Cause i wanna go out . Actually bby ask me to find out cause we planned to go out if there's any upcoming events for christmas.Go informed me if there's anything coming up okay ? okay , aku mcm despo tanye org. hahhaha , prangai cb lagy .

2009-11-17T15:35:00.002+08:00

.A Picture Here Left With Me.

Someone once told me that when you look pictures

of yourself from year to year and compared to now , you'll see much difference in yourself.

Haha , now i get what that someone was trying to say .

By just reading the history here in my blog and looking at the pictures from

months to months , look how much i've change in many many ways .

Today was like a really rest day for me. It's been ages since i spent my time

at home the whole day without even going out or whatsoever.

My Little Nephews will be here in just a few hours more. Aww, miss them.

Quarrelled with bby yesterday . Wow , malas betol aku nak elaborate.

But somehow everything seems so stupid and the issue is so small. Haha.

Hmm , let's just say after the quarrelling yesterday , we havent really talk now.

Gawd , somehow i feel sorry for myself & him cause i was the one who started it.

I wouldn't leave you

cause i know i need you to be there for me.

I think what rattna said was right .No bby , i'll always be in the darkness.

Doing all the stuffs i shoulnt do . Trying new things without thinking.

Repeating the bad habits i have , again and again . Hmmm.

2009-11-16T18:25:00.004+08:00

alright , let me start from SATURDAY . Met afifah bambam and

accompany her to AMK for the s'pore idol. Haha , and then chillax at mc cafe in AMK.

Bby was from work and he decided to meet me and afifah at mc AMK .

So yeah , bused to Yishun . Afifah left and both of us decided to catch a movie.

2012 was damn merepek okay ! i swear. you'll regret watching .

Both of us were lucky there were still tickets left for that 8pm show. Haha.

So , yeah , Bby treated me everything . He said it was for our one monthsary. Haha.

Everything ended by 11pm . Hmmmmm , sumpah eh 2012 merepek.

"B , jom terbang pergy CHINA on the year of 2012. Ade ship yg akan selamat kan kite."

HAHAHA. Very funny eh .

As for today , I just got back from meeting syg. Haha.

Met wanie & boyf for awhile as she was at khatib too at that time.

And currently , im waiting for mom and dad to return cause im damn hungry now.

I need food. My stomach is soooooooooo growling right now............

ps ; sorry ah muke masai . Haha.

2009-11-13T23:09:00.005+08:00

Well , let me introduced , that's herman btw with his birthday cake that

we made for him . Hahaha . Nice right ? Haha , cake disaster ?

Hmmm , yeah totally . But out efforts really paid off.

...Well , let me back-tracked about my yesterday

woke up at 8am and head to bby's house. i wasnt the first one to arrive

cause there were fadylah , arul and afy.Hmm , firstly we made the cake.

the cake turned out to be some kind of cake disaster but it was fun.

Arul was like in charge of the whole thingy . And then we did the

spaghetti and the sauce and the chocolate fountain with marshmallows

and hotdogs and fries and nachoz and chocolates. There were so much food.

And many many hilarious moments to elaborate . Hahaha , shh , let's just keep

it to ourselves okay guys ? you know i know. *winkwink*

Things really went well and eisaa and ain arrived slightly later than us.

Hmm , well all the cooking were done by 3pm . And then Herman arrived.

He thought we were supposed to go out for a movie. But when he arrived , we all

started to dig in . And the sabo part. Hahahahaa ! Arul ajak him go kedai

to buy some drinks but all of us threw eggs and flour on him when he was at the

second floor. all of us ran back up until fifth floor. nak masok , tapy realised we

were on the wrong floor. And then ... hahaha !

Right , i wont elaborate much what happened but ohwell , i had so much fun

in god know how many weeks. Haha , but what a sad thing ,

that some of them will be leaving school next year.

everything ended up by 6pm . I was so tired by then .

Lucky bby sent me till the bus stop. Gawd, hahhahaa.

Today , i slept the whole day . i really mean it . THE WHOLE DAY .

i was so tired lah . really tired. Wanted to meet bby after his work,

but i was too tired for everything . hmmm.

well , I MISS HIM NOW .

oh yeah , my one month with him was 11/11/09.

And you know what ? one thing to say , awe-some.

10 months of contacting him and finally we have a perfect one month

withough breaking up or patching up -.-

Whatever happens , I'll love you like i always do okay bby ?

2009-11-10T22:45:00.002+08:00

I realised ive been blogging almost everyday .

Ohmygawd. I better stop . Hahaha , i really got nothing to to do each time

i face this monitor. So blogging is my first stop.

Tady met up with bby and arul at northpoint.

Somebody's bday coming and they are being so sweet . Haha !

Wont reveal anything by thursday . So yeah . HAHAHA .

so basically i met baby and arul only today .

Hmm alright , ill end here.

2009-11-10T01:05:00.003+08:00

Mundane.Boring.Day

ohmygod,i wish i can tell the whole word that . Like as if lah .

Hmm , woke up in the morning. But i realised i was late to attend training.

So i let my ass lay in bed and there i am , back into dreamland.

Well , around 11am , i went to the library for self-studying.

Ahh , another mission accomplished soon. I know ive been calling people

study geeks and yet me behaving as a study geek right now ? Hmm , fyi ,

im only studying cause i have to . i will never do it in my whole life if only money

drops from the sky everyday. If only lah . But i know that wouldnt happen.

Not even in a million years lah . So yeah .

Then head to mac northland to met up with my friends. Hahahahaha.

I had to admit that i miss them like gawd knows how much .

I dont know but how could i lead my life wilthout laughing my ass with them eh ?

HAHA :D bahan ketawe aku ah sey.

Hmm reached home at 2pm and i slept oh well till 5pm.

Planned to meet bf actually today tapy tak jadi.

Cb , ive been keeping things from him lately . Like alot of things lah lately.

But i swear i dont know why . Sometimes , im afraid to lose you.

I dont know why and i dont want to know why.

And and , boohoo , i miss spending my times with my cousin.

Espacially eqa who's been like MIA for quite some time cause of her O'Levels.

Yeah i went otp with ratty just now and we had a conversation about how

me and her and eqa spent our nights at nenek's crib . And those times , when

we are so damn closed with the AMK guys. Miss them sia.

Plenty of jokes when we were very very very closed to them

2009-11-07T23:05:00.003+08:00

"mission accomplished ... ! "

okay ,yay , finally , im done highlighting my hair today . Haha , im like damn happpppy laa.

one of my wishlist done . and there's still left more.

But things that i wanna get done now , right now.

Shopping .

Studying . (which includes completing my assignments)

So let me tell you what happened today briefly.

I had to woke up early today cause mummy's friend coming to my house to do my hair.

Her friend was actually a part-time hair cutter (idk what to call) ?

So you know she higlighted my hair and my mummy's friend

and she cut my brother's hair and mummy's hair . We were like in a saloon.

But the only different thing is , my house became the saloon today . Haha.

After that , i slept again . like a PIG.

And after i woke up , i siap2 to go JB with family.

wont elaborate what happend ~

But reached home 10pm. And text bby cause i miss him so much .

And thn we went otp for awhile.

HAHA , i really miss him you know . It's really been awhile since i met him.

Moreover , spent time with him . i really should apologised to him about how

i behave towards him yesterday. Sometimes , when i think back ,

i feel thankful to have him in my life . HAHA =D

kay , pics for today :

XOXO

2009-11-07T02:47:00.002+08:00

" feeling so alone "

I was hoping very much you were there for me when i really need you so badly.

I wanted badly you to be the first one to be there for me when i need you.

But i really didnt know why i cant even mouth out all my problems to you

When i know you're the one closest to me right now.

Sometimes , i feel that you didnt care about me like you use to.

i feel so neglected at times and i feel there's this sudden change about your attitude towards me.

I asked you " Don't you feel that there's a sudden change about us ?"

And you said no and you asked why.

But i told you it was nothing . I dont know why i couldnt help lying to you.

Maybe you didnt realised it or maybe it was me who was overreacting.

And now , when im crying so badly and hoping very much for you to be there ,

i dont know why i didnt have the guts to tell you anything about this matter.

Who are you to me ? Yes my bestfriend whom i trust so much.

And yeah , not only a bestfriend , but my boyfriend .

I had a really bad day today .

I keep breaking up every few hours today . I dont know why .

Had a family talk . And my parents ...

I feel so fucked today . Yes i do , seriosuly .

"Didn't they care about my feelings at all ?"

That question keeep coming . And im keen to know the answer.

I feel so neglected right now . by everyone , like seriously right now.

bf , family ... ohmygawd.

Only god knows how i'm feeling right now.

2009-11-06T00:35:00.005+08:00

pictures above taken during phiza's bday yesterday .

so rengonised that place ? outside my house onlyyyy . those who recgonised

where by just looking at the pictures , congratulations very muchh !!

today , finally i managed to catch a movie with bby at YISHUN GV.

that show was fucking sick . i mean like no wonder it's NC16.

I'll rate it like 4/5 for it. Awesomeee show. hahaha.

On the way to NP , 857-ed to interchange. There was a group of ite guys

who was in the same bus at me and they kept staring at me giving

the motherfucking look . i felt very uneasy mansx. So sampai interchange ,

i walked infront of them and met bby . And when they walked past , they

saw me with bby and i heard one of them was saying "ALAMAK." And then you know,

i recgonised one of the guys who was an ex-northlander who's currently

chatting with me. HAHA ! what a coincedance kan kan.

Hmm , i wont elaborate what happened then ~

But i really hate the way how bby treat me now.

i dont know why . i know he's sick but he seems so mooody this days.

Everytime when im otp with him , he would be like a corpse to me.

And i would end up talking to myself.

And when i ask why ? He would say NOTHING.

One thing to say about that , SUCKYYYYYYY.

.

AND I MISS AFIFAH BAMBAM ! YAY , MEET YOU SOON LOVE.

2009-11-04T11:21:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHIZA KAMRADA.

May your wishes come true and may you succeed in everything you do okay ;D

-

training was alright. i managed to get my ass up in the morning. So yeah ,

after training , there was a b'day celebration at my house.

wow , like finally , i managed to meet my gerek asses. hahaha.

as usual , kecoh uh kecoh

.

so there was me , izyan , humairah,phiza,atqa,ellina ,yaty and mr han .

well , after the bday celebration , head to safra for bowling and poo-ling.

Haha , wont elaborate much about what happen just now.

But im so glad i finally get to meet them la. Haha.

Hmm , was home early cause i left first.

Hmph , finally me & bby managed to have a conversation with each other.

he was being moody uh and i very damn lazy to layan his prangai.

He gave his nose which was painful as an excuse ?

i keep telling him to put down the phone and go have a rest rather thn talking to me.

he didnt realised that the way he said/talk to me was extreme different like he always do .

[ kau tak tawu ke aku nie sensitive ? ]

But being the egoistic guy , he said it was nothing.

Ah yealah , banyak kau punye nothing uh .Hmph. Was fucked up the way he

talk to me with his sugguh-tak-perlu tone of voice yg tak respect aku gytu.

So my perangai went ngek ngok ngek ngok . Macam cb siaa aku .

thursday , meeting bby . watching movie at gv yishun.

{ will update soon }

friday , i wanna go job hunting with izyan .

izyaaaaaan , kau tkmu paitaoooo ehh ! hahhahahaa !

2009-11-04T01:41:00.004+08:00

i found that picture in atqa's facebook . I like th picture and i dont know why. Haha,

Im having training tomorrow morning. wow , and congratulations eh im not asleep yet . I'll promise to sleep after this update.

So today , i spent my time rotting at home and sleeping. I dont know why but im so fuckin' tired today . In the morning , had a little argument but i think it's okay now since she started talking nicely . Im damn lazy to elaborate cause there's nothing to elaborate about it. It's something so childish yet immatured game for me to be part of it. Secondary one , i know. Haha , siape terase , kau punye pasal la. i wasnt referring to everyone . I was once a sec one student . And siddiq , hahah , how stupid of you to actually believe im angry you ? haha , what should you do for me to forgive you eh ? hahahaha *inside joke*

Oh ya , tomorrow , papa is gonna appeal for A maths instead of F&N . i didnt hope much but it's worth a try right ? HAHA . i wished hard in order for me to get that subject. I'll work very haard next year . And mama , thank youu !! i'll be able to highlight my hair next weeeek . can't wait ehh.

Just now , i text bby to call me but he asleeeep already /:
I miss him so muchhhh . I'm beginning to appreciate what he's been doing for me all this long and trusting him like how i should . Aww, im proud of myself and him. Next year , it would be something new for him and it's the time to put the bitter past behind forever.

2009-11-03T13:31:00.002+08:00

WOW , THAT POST REFERRING TO ME ? I'LL TELL THIS STRAIGHT TO YOUR FACE NEXT TIME, YOU'RE SUCH AN IMMATURED BIAAAATCHHHHHH .

2009-11-03T12:51:00.001+08:00

im posting now due to boredom . So much of boredom . I wanted to meet bf but he had CSO today. i miss him eventhough we just met yesterday. How strange . Like what's up with me today ? Met him yesterday after my training. He didnt went for cso yesterday and he said he went for it . HAHA , very funny. And as usual , when it comes meeting me , he always irritate me every few minutes. How irritating . hahaha . And you know , there's one thing that he love to irritate me. There's one time when me & bf played thia game : The Blindfold Game. I was blindfolded and i must find my cellphone on this table la. Butyou know what he did ? He did not even put my phone on the table. So i was searching like crazy on the table. When i open my blindfold, i saw him recording my video. HAHA , so much for a blindfold game eh .

Nyahaha. Well , right now , i just have to accept the fact that my routine will be like a pig/babi for the next few hours. i miss all the laughters we had together with them espacially with phiza and izyan who's been there for every outing i went. hahaha. I'll miss you both very much next year for not being in the same class as me. HAHA.

i havent been seeing my friends for quite a number of days and i miss you guys very much . hahaha. I hope im able to meet like all of them tomorrow as planned.

Yesterday , attended training. It was tiring lah . And me whose been a lazy pig for not turning up for training find it seriously tiring.

update on life !

2009-11-02T02:21:00.001+08:00

i'm gonna be so busy this two months of holidays. i swear .

im very packed. so yeah , booked me earlier if you wanna ask me out.

This week monday to friday , im fully-booked -__-

im having netball training tomorrow. Ahhh , shits.

Yes , once in a million years , i attend for it. Hahahahaha.

Hmm , life have been as wonderful as ever currently.

Aww, i love life (:

bf , i love you so much and i dont feel like losing you.

After what you said previously , it made me think twice.

I know both of us are so different but that doesn't stop us from being together right ?

Somehow what you say was true But i never hoped that to happen.

im glad i managed to change you into someone better.

Please keep the promise that you made to me whatever happens to us okay bby ?

Haiyo , people that i'm looking forward to meet very , very soon :

MY LAUGHING CLIQUE ! (OMG , miss you guys! )

BF !

COUSINS !

& YEAH , I'LL BE WATCHING THIS SHOW ON TUESDAY WITH BF.

arghhhhh , cant wait. im so eye-ing for this show since last week.

BBQ PHOTOS [ PART 1]

2009-11-01T19:06:00.000+08:00

2009-11-01T01:39:00.004+08:00

" pool-ing "

Right , i'll briefly explained what happen today .

Make sure if you read my post , read till you finished it tau . hahaha.

Firstly , head to bishan to fixed mummy's watch with rattna. And then accompany

her to meet her friend for ciggies. Damn , im so tempted to smoke ciggies.

Lagy lagy it was just infront of me but i just cant do it due to certain reasons.

Moreover, im the one who ask bf to stop ciggies so why should i be smoking ?

No no , if bf knows , god knows what happen next. hahaha.

So yeah . just now it was raining heavily with strong winds .

That time me , rattna , amzar and hanafi was lepakking under the block in Bishan prime.

Then we went to one of the blocks and go to second floor to pretect us from the rain.

Sat there for like an hour like budak tkde life ?

Then one hour passed. it was still raining heavily but without strong winds.

So all of us wanted to pee. BUT we need to cross this motherfucking road.

We decided to steal some umbrellas from people's house.

so we went to every floor. and check who's house got umbrella.

Finally , we reached this house . Got four umbrellas. Grabbed two of them.

Hmm . after that we went pool-ing . Bus-ed there. played pool till 10pm

yay , it was damn fun . i swear. okay thn bused to thomson to eat.

After that cabbed home with rattna , nurul and hanafi. reached home around 11.30pm.

now, here am i blogging about it. hahahah.

2009-10-30T23:51:00.005+08:00

" This was so yesterday ... "

Firstly i apologised about the bbq picsx that im supposed to post.

There's like tons and millions of them.

I'LL POST THEM SOON . PROMISE.

anything just check my fb okay . there's like tons of them . hahah.

Lemme first talk about my results. Results were okay . But the subject

combination that i got was damn sucky . i swear to god. i was damn

surprised to find out the subjects that i got. everything was all unexpected.

I didnt expect to get F & N . i dont want spent the rest of my two years doing

cooking . It will sucks like a million years in life. But looking in the brght side, i

felt that i should be thankful. Maybe i'll get better results with those. I dont even have

the mood to appeal . I dont feel like it as it's worthless. As i was saying , looking at the

bright side, im in the same class with most of the gereksxsxzz people. haha !

i hope next year it wont be a disaster year with many conflicts that ever happened.

I'll miss noisy 2EA so muchhhh ! The most 'happening' class ever you guys would be .

So yeah , after school, met up with boyfie. He sent me home and then

met up with Ratty . Ratty sleepover my house today . hhaha , just got back

from lepak-king with nabil and ratty . nabil sanggup turon khatib . hahhaha.

Thanks eh teman kiter nabby( :

Today tears appeared suddenly because of two things that i think partly that changed

my whole life here.

Firstly , was the stupid combination results.

Secondly , was about bf. im touched by what he said.

Finally , BF is officially 'cleaned'. he really change alot into somebody new.

I dont know , time flies so fast whenever i think back. Many events really

took place between the both of us. I dont expect that you're finally

thnking about your future ahead and realising things you shouldnt do.

I love you for who you are. And i never had the thought to feel embarassed

or whatsoever. I love you and i'll always do.

2009-10-29T01:19:00.004+08:00

"group photo"

i wasn't being patient so i finally decided to post eventhough i havent

even received all the pictures from mr han . i'll receive everything by tomorrow

perhaps. Aww , hopefully . i think there's like tons of pictures of the barbeque.

Okay , let me tell you guys briefly on that day of the barbeque :

i went out around 1.30pm to meet bby. Accompany him to AMK.

Then we bus-ed to tampines. what a long journey . 1 hour in the bus.

At Tamp Inter , separated with him and i bus-ed to Downtown alone . I was

feeling worried cause the bus like cb you know ! XD

keep moving and moving tapy tak sampai2. Padehal downtown and tampines

dekat sia . it's like a 3o mins journey . Reached downtown.

Walk through the terraces house all . Through the park alone.

Some guys even try to disturb and call me but i didnt look back . i feel so scared.

Cause im walking on an empty street alone where im surrounded by trees

and some abandoned houses. Few terraces were there. I had to ask several passer-bys

for the shortcuts on how to get to the chalet. That time , i wished really hard that

boyfriend was by my side now . Grr , haha . And yknow , a kind man gave me a lift

on his van to the chalet . I know i shouldnt accept ride from strangers. But yeah , thanks

to that man , i managed to reach the chalet .

At night , me, izyan , phiza, atqa ,sham , willem ,siddiq and ramesh rent bicycles.

And we cycled together. I swear pasir ris park surrounding were so scary .

At some parts i can even feel my hairs on my back standing up straight . I dont know

why but the place felt so quiet and it seems like not much people go there as

compared to changi lah . hmm. But 8 people cycling together would make you feel brave.

Kecoh-ness all over. when we reach the chalet, we were surprised cause there were

only 3 pple left. Pathetic much ? And we played twister. We were the last to go home.

Daddy fetched me , siddiq and willem and sent them home.

Reached home exactly 12 midnight . Hahaha , was dead tired by then.

But yesterday was really fun with all the food . yummy yummy ,

i swear im gonna missed my classmates and MR HAN who's always pampering us

with alot of stuffs. hahahah . I can name it if i want to you know.

Alright , goodnight loves.

i'll post all the pictures as soon as i received it.

2009-10-27T10:13:00.002+08:00

okehhhs , good morning sweethearts =)

let me elaborate about yesterday and what's gonna happen today. Yesterday night , i was actually busy teaching my brother. yeah , told you already right , my father paid me to teach him. Hmph . Imagine two and a half hours in a room with your brother. cant watch tv / otp / lappy-ing. bored kan ? what to do ~ my dad paid me . so yeah. better thn not earning extra cash kan ? hahahah .

after teaching, otp with bbyboo. thn went online to updayeee my blogg. And find my own way how to get to the barbeque place by bus. i know already . heh heh . Thanks FEE =)
Thank god alot of my friends tinggal pasir ris. hahahhaha .

Later im gonna do my kening for awhile with bby . thn i'll head to pasir ris. sad thing now , i cant go out . boo hoo. so im stuck at home waiting for time to passed. laugh out loud. aytes, i'll make a move now . Takecare.

2009-10-26T23:20:00.004+08:00

"eeeeeeeeee, muke aku cb "

Damn lazy to elaborate but but History trip was on today :D

And after school , met bby for awhile.

Hmm , im happy at this present moment. Mom reccomend me

to highlight my hair at this shop which was her friend. So yeah ,

i can't wait long . Tomorrow , class barbeque is so on .

Can't wait any longeeer bebehhh ~

Pictures below. Not all uploaded. hahah . LAZY .

2009-10-25T01:10:00.002+08:00

okay , to be exact , it's 1.45am . And here i am , still wide awake. im facing boredom right now. oh no, im gonna face boredom soon , like every single fucking day of my life. no , no , no i wont let that happen to meeee. never never never okehhhs XD

today , can say lah im quite busy . dad paid me to teach my brother. so yeah , i had to teach my bro in order to earn some cash. i ended up resting on the bed and asking my bro to do all the practices. and then i marked. and he do . and i marked. and he do . and i marked. till he ask "how to do this ? " then , i will explain to me. hahahaha , if i become teacher , i think my students can become stupid nyek nyok ! hahahha. forget the ambition to become a teacher.

so i went expo . banyaaak sale siaaa ! cb , all the branded stuffs all were on sale. geraaam siaa tengok all the stuffs. thn go changi to refill my stomach . you know , all the way , i left my cellphone at home. i was like what the mother toot when i realised it. so i was actually looking forward to go home.

so yeah , otp with bby just now.

bby , im so happy and glad about all those changes you made for yourself.

And terima kasih tuhan telah mengabulkan permintaanku.

im happy you'll be quiting all those stuffs.

i'll be the happiest person if you stopped everything and repent.

I never forced you cause i know this matter isnt the matter of forcing or not.

It's either , you want it or not. you know i love you and i would like

the best for you . i love you , i love you , i love you bby !

couple's outing. hehehehhee !

2009-10-24T13:03:00.013+08:00

" the four of us ... "

okay hello !!! miss me ? so yeah , im back for blogging.

Anyway , yesterday i received my results. I dont know how to describe

my feelings about my examinations results. Cause i some subjects , i did very

well , some were just a dissapointment. Maths and Science was both key subjects.

Yet , i did'nt do very well. Maths was expected but science was dissapointing.

I dont feel like going out after that but i couldnt do anything cause

i dont feel like paitao-ing anyone so i just went out for the outing.

went home with afifah bambam (:

Bf was late . stupid gong gong. when i called him , he said he was 1 station away.

banyaaak kau punye one station away ! afyy and afifah reached first .

so he was like the last. he is so funnyyy siaa. he said to me dont be late.

padehal dier lambaaaat -.-

First stop was far east plaza. to buy my shorts. I was desperate though.

But i finally found my shorts. Then we head to bugis and ate at this place.

i forgot the name . Hmm , thanks bf . Love you ! hahaha. you know why.

okay then go bugis street to find headband. hahaha .

funny siaa nie faliq ! he was the reason why we are in bugis street.

Then we walk walk to bugis library . Bugis library was the bomb.

Snap some pictures at the rooftop there or what the hell that place was called.

hahahhaa ! gawdshhhh ! i was so tired at that point of time.

But funny . i felt that outing was kind of fun . Made me forget about

my dissapointments of my results. hahahahah .

kay so yeah , after that both of us decided to bussed home.

me and bf took 851 while afifah and afy 980-ed home.

inside the bus so many people sia. cb . i dont like. hahhaha .

better than train i guess. if i was to take train at that point of time , we would like

be sardines in a can . hhahaha . lucky though we took bus.

so yeah , accompanied bf to meet faez baby.

lazy to elaborate that part ~

but i know that point of time when we were at the bus stop all

sorts of things was running through my mind. i dont know , but i dont

feel like you leaving me. i dont want you to leave me . haish ~

reached home . ard 10.30pm , wanie came my house.

and blah blah . met rattna and friends after that under my block.

lepak lepak till 11.30pm gitu ? thn i went home cause i was damn tired luh !

came back from outing je , met rattna bby and friends to lepak .

that explains why im so deadly tired. gawddshhh !! they were from

night safari actually . what a phew i didnt tagged along. hahahahah !!!

okayy dahh , im done posting . happy viewing the cutey pictures of me !

okay fake ! hahhahahaha :D

eeeeeeeeee ! both gay gay gay gay ! hahahah .

this one i tricked them. then i snapped their muke selengeh. hahahah !!!

cb afyyy . hahaha . he suddenly move infront purposely so that the

picture got his face aloneeee. hahhaha .

hahaha ! tgk bby punye muke ! HAHAH.

2009-10-21T21:28:00.002+08:00

So today i had no plans. Met bf to watch some movies at my lappy .

Sat at his opposite block and we watch SKY HIGH .

tapy kesian bby nak tgok but then got this apek very noisy .

He talked so loud till bf had difficulty understanding some parts of the story.

Hmmmm, watched till 6 plus pm . And then his stomach was growling.

So i accompanied him to seven eleven. Thn he bought crackers.

He walked to me the interchange and me and him 812-ed home .

Tomorrow , im going to school .

LaLaLaLaLa.

marking day.

2009-10-21T10:39:00.004+08:00

Today was practically a 'no-school-day' for Northlanders.

M A R K I N G D A Y.

anyway , im sorry for the last post without explanations.

quarrelled with bf yesterday so yeah you know what it means.

stupid, cb bf made me cry sia for his words.

okay sorry bf . hahahhaa ! you made me say this.

but he apologised already and obviously , i knew he didnt meant what he said.

buyt you know that word he said really made me think twice of myself.

it's like whenever i'll look in the mirror, i'll always remember what you said to me ytd.

at night , we were okay and we play games. yay yay , i won checkers.

the last checkers game , he won . And we had a deal . who lose , treat ice cream.

so today , i feel like going out but i think im gonna be broke soon.

so yeah , better save $$$ for the upcoming outings.

so today's plans was , im gonna meet bf later in the afternoon.

thn i'll bring my lappy along with CDs. so we can watch together.

hahahha , and the chocolate cake in my refrigerator too.

yummy yummy ! i'll finish the cake by today . if only , i can. hahahha.

2009-10-20T21:50:00.006+08:00

masaaaai gylerr XD

That particular word that you said to me keep coming back to me. I wont forget that word that you said to me , that word that you use to criticise me " p___ m____" It really offended me every way . I know who am i and where i stand. I realised everything. I feel like a bitch , a whore right now after you said that me. yes , it was so unexpected. i cried thinking everything and that word keeps mingling every minute in my mind. i wont blame you cause maybe , you're right. i am one . i am what you said. Nevermind , i know you didnt mean it at all ....

2009-10-19T21:20:00.003+08:00

babyboo , please get well soon. Im worried. You seem that you're really sick previously. Rest well. I love you.

And gfs, sorry i had to leave you guys . I'll make it up for you guys. I shouldnt leave you . Thanks for the great day today.

went out with gfs today . thn meet bby. i'll update soon ! im off to jb now .

2009-10-19T00:35:00.002+08:00

See you guys . Hahahaha.

Incase you guys know , i miss storytelling & laughing my ass out with you guys.

i cant wait for tomorrow . It's a pity some of our friends cant make it.

---

i dont need a job hunting afterall . ive finally found one. But im

not sure if im gonna involved myself in that . Haish .

I miss bf very very very much . Will be seeing him only on tuesday as i've been

really busy with outings for the past few days .

Now im starting to realised how hard to balance my time between

friends and love life. i enjoy the company of those two major people in my life.

They've been my medicine for everything. I mean like everything lah .

Although time spent may be so uneven between this two ,

i'll always cheris you guys like how kindergarten kids do.

HEHEHEHEHE :D

2009-10-17T00:10:00.002+08:00

Today , supposingly , i was supposed to be ouths with Izyan & Phiza. Due to certain reasons , everything was pushed to Monday.

Boyfie meet me today around 3pm . He was sick actually and cancelled at first to meet me. But he called me few minutes later to meet me up. So yeah , met under my block and had a conversation with him . Then ard 5 he went off for something. Ard 8pm , boyfie met me again under my block . And we chilled at the park(S) .NOW , here am i bloggging about this shits.

I cant wait tilll i get my papers. i dont know but i feel so anxious about the FYE results. hahah.
Im not sure if i have really out my best efforts in or not. I dont know how well im doing in my academic. i feel so blank whenever my mind comes to studies. But i pray so hard that i'll get the combination subjects that i wanted next year.

2009-10-15T22:17:00.002+08:00

okay , i will update my blog regularly now since exams are like gonna be officially over.

okay . let's like talk about today . hmm , after school , me , izyan and phiza

head to np. the main reason was because izyan wanted to buy her nail polish.

But we ended up mc cafe-ing and chillax-ing telling each other about

our life stooory . And then , we headed to the interchange to go home.

salam-ed phiza and izyan and when i turned , bf was just behind me.

thn something happened between me & bf.

he started like scolding me. he was being so unreasonable.

all because of that jantan PKM .

Because , when i was walking with bf kat interchange , that jantan PKM was there.

so bf started asking alot of questions about him.

thn he started scolding me and asking foolish questions about my feelings all.

i board the bus feeling pissed with his stupid mothertoot attitude.

he was just being unreasonable. i dont really know what was his problem that time.

Reached home and i was still feeling pissed & angry about him .

I just cant accept the fact how he talked to me and started scolding me previously.

Received a text msg & it was from bf.

He apologised about what he did previously.

HAHA , the sweetest thing about him . He knows when he's wrong.

He really change now . He use to be very , very egoistic .

And i would be the one ended up being patient and apologising him

But now , he is just so different.

whatever happens , i'll still love him like i used to .

2009-10-10T22:44:00.002+08:00

I WISH ...

everything i wish would come true.
if only that happpens. hmmm , i should just tell myself , quit dreaming.

Right , i've been taking too much break today and all i should do now is open my book of hell and start revising for the upcoming terror ahead. i feel so weird sometimes . i just dont know what's happening to me in terms of putting my head up into studies. i wanted so badly to ace for my examintions but im afraid i'll just have to face the fact sooner that i failed to get what i ace for.

okay , QUIT THIS SHIT.

yesterday , quarrel with bf. i was pissed with him . like God knows how pissed am i with him. Sometimes i feel that im just in the middle of a game. One will lose and one will gain the victory.
But today , everything went fine . Bf went to my open house today . actually tak jady . ended up jady . so only , afifah , bf and afy went to my open house. HAHAHA . malu2 kucing satu2 uh . hmm , so yeah . after that spent time with bf for awhile . well , thank you for coming :D

love you , love you , love you .

2009-10-09T14:48:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not posting for the past few days . Had beeen very busy with life including studies. for the past few days , ive been spending my time everyday for studies. Luckily bf was always there to accompany me whenever i need someone.

Today was malay & english paper 1. Overall , everything went fine but i have the feeling i screwed up english paper 1 compo . Hmm , it's over . No point looking back .

So yeah , life had beeeeen a blast for the past few days for me. I love my family , bf and friends who's always there eventhough there had been some or even little friendship crisis this few days. But everything will turn out to be alright , im very sure of it.

After school , met afifah and head to chong pang for nasi ayam penyet as i was so craving for it. Hahah , like finally , i had my nasi ayam penyeeeeeet ^^ thanks afifah !

Later im meeting bf first followed by afifah and afy to study for our upcoming examinations. Will probably be night studying . Im glad bf is now changing into someone whom i grew to love so much now .

Anyway , GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR PAPERS EVERYONE !

XOXO

i love yoou !

2009-10-04T01:51:00.003+08:00

Thanks for the very,very great day today.

It's been a while since we spent time together

Like finaaaaaaaallly .

Im glad for one thing that you're changing into someone better

whom i know right now.

i'll aways be by your side and be there for you.

God knows how much i care for you.

For All I Know,

I LOVE YOU :D

& only you.

see you tomorrow again , love.

2009-10-03T23:23:00.004+08:00

So anyway , today was a perfect saturday. woke up early

and studied like cb all the way till 2. around 4pm,

bhy fetched me under my block and we headed to his sister's house.

i was like 'duk dak duk dak' . obviously , everything went fine actually.

i feeeeeeeel happy being by his side. hahahhaha. so anyway ,

9pm took cab to his gawdsis house at woodlands.

around 10.15pm , i wanted go off so we cabbed to yishun NP.

bus-ed home and here i am blogging about those wonderful things.

hmmm , sayaaaaaang faliqqqqq (:

fuck you. kau ingat aku murah sangat nak ade intercourse

ke ape kejadah yg kau blg dier uh ? kau ingat aku tkde life buat gytu ? kau

ingat aku muraaaaaaah sangat ? cb !

PICTURES :

2 OCTOBER 2009

(willem's belated bday celebration)

2009-10-02T18:24:00.004+08:00

just got back from seould garden from celebrating willem's bday . willem ! i hope you had fun . espacially the cake on your face ! haha. PICTURES WILL BE POSTED VERY SOON :]

Today , seoul garden-ed with izyan , phiza and mr han plus gerrald and adam sec 5. gerrald was suppoosed to teach us maths so yeah he tagged along. it was supposed to be a surprise for willem espacially with the cake. ended up , it was a surprise . the best thing was . there was cake all over willem's first . i hope you have funn , deaaarest friend. HAHAHHA .

ive not been online msn and switching on my lappy this few days cause oh well , exams are drawing nearer. i sont want get distracted by my lappy . Hmmmm, check tagged. CB , lalu profile dier mcm nak cocok cocok sia. cb tol ! hmph . kay no , shouldnt get so jealous over small little things.

yesterday , i studied the whole day . during school , after school. after school , met up with f baby to study . i did my revision and he did his coursework. surprisingly , i managed to finished up all my assignments . like everything. reached hom 8pm i think and by the time , i swear i was so tired and i sleept . geee ! love you love you love you.

PICTURES THAT ARE MISS (:

1 week after sept holidays...

Few weeks ago ...

(fasting month)

2009-09-30T20:43:00.001+08:00

i know willem's gonna screw me for posting this pic

but yeah , skali skale jahat , ape salahnye kan ? :p
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY WILLEM .

I TOTALLY SCREW UP TODAY'S PERFORMANCE FOR GOD'S SAKE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

After the performance, i dont even dare to show my face to the upper secs. it was embarassing i tell you . in the middle of the singing thingy , i just cock up suddenly . Maybe because i see all the weird faces staring at me and some peers whom i recgonised, i feel so embarassed ler. Naseb faleq tak dtg skula ! hahaha , but afy , sumpahhhh basket told faleq what happened during my performance. IT'S NOT EASY PERFORMING ON STAGE . my pitching went wrong. that wasnt my voice. Plus , i totally screwed up the lyrics. Haishhhhh . but nvm , luckily , there was support from my friends. THANKS dearest friends.

Anyway , finally after like 5 or 6 days , i managed to go home with faleq and have a face to face conversation . like finaaaaalllly okay . things still went well betweeeeen us . and this saturday , i dont need to attend uncle's house. YAY YAY YAY YAY . so happy babe. But i need to study MATHS with gerrald to clarify everything in the morning. hehhehehehhe.

RIGHT NOWWWWW ....

my nephews at my house.

2009-09-27T11:32:00.003+08:00

YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU

XOXO