Haish , Oh god, please mend my broken heart quickly.

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today was really a half hearted day for me. i'll tell you why .

i do things most of the time half heartedly. i wasnt in the mood actually .

i was pissed with F . He ditched me again ):

And then when i reach home , you should see how i behave.

i got angry with my brothers for so small reason and i started shouting at them.

Actually , i was so pissed. Then , like out of the blue, i cry .

weird enough ? It was such a bad feeling . I keep thinking about F really .

F , F , F and more F . That's so bad. haish . i better stop .

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AND then someone was being such a sweetheart to meet me up

and be my listening ear. So i met L under my void deck.

And we walked to bottle tree park . i brought my books along actually to

study . The main reason for today . Oh well , i had a conversation about

what happened to me really , this few days . And i realised his like is

so different than mind . Pretty much different.

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Well , he was sleepy doopyhead. And he went for a nap .

while i opened my book and start reading trying to get everything into my head.

But something else was on my mind so basically in the end , NOTHING

absolutely gets into my head. And then F text me , ok part nie weird.

you want to know why , i text text thn i cry again .

Luckily L was having his nap sia or he would be seeing my tears.

tsk tsk . so much for a girl . so much for being a girl . Haish .

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And now , guess what ? everything's over between us.

I really dont want that to happen . I told myself that like a gazillion times.

There's always a solution . But i guess everything's too late now.

I just have to get over everything . Boy , i wish you knew how much i love you.